I can’t sleep. Or at least I can’t sleep during normal sleep-time hours. I’ve gotten seven hours of consecutive sleep today, but it spanned from 7 pm to 2 am, and now I’m wide awake and raring to go. The problem is that I can’t concentrate well enough to do ANYTHING. I could sit down and plan homeschool for next year but nope, can’t sit still or think straight enough to do this.
I feel like my doctor has given up on me. He said he’s out of options. I can’t take lithium, Lamictal and Topamax didn’t work for me. I refuse to take Depakote because of the weight gain side-effects. I guess I am going to have to stick with my Zoloft only, and then use Seroquel if I have a manic episode and just be an absolute zombie during that time. Besides not being able to concentrate (I blame the Abilify still roaming around in my system) I feel okay mood-wise. This is the time of year that I do okay and am the happiest and most normal since we have more daylight and it’s warmer. Maybe we should move to Florida, I could get off drugs completely.